My little Bryce...

I feel like I have been a terrible mother....I haven't written on here for so long. It's not that I don't think about you...I think about you everyday! I think that I am just starting to be okay with knowing that I can carry you in my heart always and that is okay for the moment. But still...I like to come on here and write a few things that I am feeling. I hope that you and Grandpa are getting well aquainted. If he can't be here with the rest of the grandkids, I'm glad he can be with you. I miss you and Grandpa a lot. I think about you both all the time. Sometimes I am in pity mode and wonder "why". Sometimes I feel very picked on and wonder what I could have done to deserve this. Other times I am just greatful that I was able to love and lose then to not have loved at all. I hope you and Grandpa know that I love you both very much. I miss ya lots and lots.
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On another note....I'm hoping that you two are helping to prepare us for this new little one on the way. Keep her safe till you send her to us. I look forward to her arrival....may sound strange, but those are the times that I feel closest to you and I'm sure it will be particularly special with Grandpa there with you this time.
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Just know that I love and miss you everyday and look forward to our reunion one day. I love you and tell Grandpa I love him. Muah!